It's Been Months...

...but I'm still alive. Still in a kind of bad place, though this year I've had a lot of ups and downs, eating-wise. I probably won't be updating this much, but I realized that some people might be worried.

New Year's Eve

It's nearly 4pm, and I've done nothing all day. I was awake until around 5 this morning though, as my cold has turned into a hacking cough. Also, I was so restless that I kept kicking the blankets off of me and rolling around, trying to get comfortable. It was a bad night.

So far today, I've had a spoonful of honey and a small Hasselback potato. (Look them up; they take a while to prepare, but they're delicious.) I'm going to head over to the fitness room once I get dressed, and then I need to clean the apartment in preparation for people coming over tomorrow.

It's just so dreary here. It's winter, and usually we get tons of snow, but it's been around 50 degrees and foggy and rainy here. Weird.

Body Parts

What I Like About Myself:
-my ribcage
-my forearms
-thin wrists
-muscular calves

What I Don't Like About Myself:
-large thighs
-wide ribcage
-stomach
-round face
-love handles
-fat on my back
-hipbones only visible when laying down

Sick

Yup. Still sick. I just want this cold to go away so I can work out easier. It was horrible working out today because my nose just kept running. Ugh.

Inspiration

Depression

Yup, it's back. I've spent far too long just laying around. Doing laundry and never putting it away. Staring at the dirty dishes with no motivation to wash them. Today I finally went to campus to get some stuff done, and the office I need to leave things in is closed for winter. But I finally returned my library books, which are so overdue. I hate things recently.

Interesting Article

Virtual Food Causes Stress in Patients Affected by Eating Disorders

Florence Summer Dance

I don't know if I mentioned this on here, but I'm thinking about applying for a dance intensive in Florence next summer. However, it costs $55 to apply, which I can't afford. If any of you want to help throw a couple bucks towards helping me out, it'd be appreciated.

Sick...

...again. Boyfriend gave me his cold. I knew it was coming, since I could feel it creeping up on me the last couple days, but last night it was hard to sleep. And now I'm just an exhausted mess in constant need of tissues. And I have to work for 4.5 hours tonight. It's time for cold medicine, I guess.

Also, I didn't get to work out today. Tomorrow's plan is a bagel for breakfast, a small bowl of cereal for lunch, and an apple for supper. I've got to ease myself back into restricting or I know I'll just get sicker.